{"id":117,"date":"2007-08-30T21:15:00","date_gmt":"2007-08-30T19:15:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/living-on-my-own.html"},"modified":"2009-04-21T14:20:59","modified_gmt":"2009-04-21T11:20:59","slug":"living-on-my-own","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=117","title":{"rendered":"living on my own"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I guess being alone makes me a little bit nostalgic. In fact, I hardly think about myself right now. I don&#8217;t know what&#8217;s goin&#8217; on with my soul these days. I believe it&#8217;s not in a very good mood&#8230; <br \/>I am a little bit afraid of being alone. I have always been surrounded by people. I have always lived with somebody. I hate the empty house and I&#8217;m sure autumn will make it worse. But I think it was about time I face this in my life, to deal with it and get used to it. Because in the end, we get used to everything, good or bad. And so I must get used to having friends who never call, weird neighbors and an unhappy cat. In a month or two, I could even get used to the empty house.<br \/>But I&#8217;m not sure I could get used to the lack of words. I need words to stir my imagination, to be in a good mood, to shine, to blossom, to sleep well. Crazy as it sounds, I need somebody to tell me I look good in order for me to believe it. I need to be told I am loved to be well.<br \/><a href=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=bTYNW8UmcQI\"><object width=\"425\" height=\"350\"><param name=\"movie\" value=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/v\/bTYNW8UmcQI\"><\/param><param name=\"wmode\" value=\"transparent\"><\/param><embed src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/v\/bTYNW8UmcQI\" type=\"application\/x-shockwave-flash\" wmode=\"transparent\" width=\"425\" height=\"350\"><\/embed><\/object><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I guess being alone makes me a little bit nostalgic. In fact, I hardly think about myself right now. I don&#8217;t know what&#8217;s goin&#8217; on with my soul these days. I believe it&#8217;s not in a very good mood&#8230; I &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=117\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[280],"class_list":["post-117","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-lovelife","tag-alone"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/117","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=117"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/117\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":849,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/117\/revisions\/849"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=117"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=117"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=117"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}