{"id":19,"date":"2004-11-24T00:04:00","date_gmt":"2004-11-23T22:04:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/what-the-heeeeellllll.html"},"modified":"2009-04-21T14:05:39","modified_gmt":"2009-04-21T11:05:39","slug":"what-the-heeeeellllll","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=19","title":{"rendered":"what the heeeeellllll?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"color:#993300;\">well, cannot believe this, but it&#8217;s true: C. is leaving to Barcelona after all, leaving me here, in the perfect chaos. His life is always a chaos, and this is why he is used to it, but me&#8230; that&#8217;s a different story.  And M. is coming back, oh God, i shouldn&#8217;t feel this, this summer we were in love and now I can&#8217;t stand the thought of him in the house&#8230; It&#8217;s strange, but I can&#8217;t actually tell him to move back in, even though I wanna help him, because I just can&#8217;t. I thought of waiting for C. to leave and then&#8230;. I&#8217;ll see.<\/span><br \/>\n<br \/><span style=\"color:#993300;\">This makes no sense. Yeah, I know. so what? <\/span><br \/>\n<br \/><span style=\"color:#993300;\">And the one I love&#8230; he is in too much pain and unhappiness to be able to talk about him right now. someday maybe..<\/span><br \/>\n<br \/><span style=\"color:#993300;\">And that&#8217;s it for today.<\/span><br \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>well, cannot believe this, but it&#8217;s true: C. is leaving to Barcelona after all, leaving me here, in the perfect chaos. His life is always a chaos, and this is why he is used to it, but me&#8230; that&#8217;s a &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=19\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[269,43],"class_list":["post-19","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-lovelife","tag-confusion","tag-guys"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":837,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19\/revisions\/837"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}