{"id":2373,"date":"2018-03-08T11:16:38","date_gmt":"2018-03-08T08:16:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=2373"},"modified":"2021-11-16T02:10:49","modified_gmt":"2021-11-15T23:10:49","slug":"you-lose-some-you-win-some","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=2373","title":{"rendered":"You lose some, you win some"},"content":{"rendered":"

Am sentimente foarte amestecate cu privire la ziua de 8 martie. Probabil c\u0103 cei care m\u0103 cunosc destul de bine \u0219tiu deja de ce. Azi se \u00eemplinesc 15 ani de c\u00e2nd tat\u0103l meu nu mai e. Dar tot azi se \u00eemplinesc 7 ani de c\u00e2nd am ie\u0219it prima dat\u0103 cu actualul so\u021b.<\/p>\n

Un ochi r\u00e2de, unul pl\u00e2nge.<\/p>\n

Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 a\u0219 putea spune acum c\u0103 mi-e dor de tata. Am trecut de dor, de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la el, simt un gol \u00een piept. \u00cen to\u021bi anii \u0103\u0219tia am trecut prin toate etapele. L-am idealizat, l-am adorat, m-am certat cu el \u00een capul meu, l-am ur\u00e2t, l-am dispre\u021buit, l-am \u00eenvinov\u0103\u021bit de toate relele care mi se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 acum. P\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 am ajuns s\u0103-mi dau seama, acum, \u00een anul \u00een care \u00eemplinesc 40 de ani, c\u0103 el nu mai e \u0219i c\u0103 tot frecu\u0219ul \u0103sta din mintea mea nu are rost. Probabil c\u0103 era doar modalitatea prin porn skill com<\/a> care eu m\u0103 ag\u0103\u021bam de ideea de tata, chiar dac\u0103 \u00een minte \u00eel \u00eenjuram. Ceea ce m\u0103 doare cu adev\u0103rat e c\u0103 a murit prea devreme, mult \u00eenainte ca eu s\u0103-mi dau seama<\/a> cine e el.<\/p>\n

Dar ceea ce 8 martie mi-a luat, 8 martie mi-a \u0219i dat. Nu m-am g\u00e2ndit atunci, pe 8 martie 2011, c\u0103 peste 7 ani o s\u0103 fiu m\u0103ritat\u0103 cu omul cu care eram la un vin \u00een ora\u0219. \u021ain minte doar senza\u021bia de naturale\u021be din toat\u0103 seara aceea, cum pur \u0219i simplu nu am avut vreo a\u0219teptare \u0219i for once in my life nu am vrut s\u0103 sar etapele, nu am vrut s\u0103 m\u0103 gr\u0103besc, am luat-o a\u0219a cum era. Poate c\u0103 d-aia a fost memorabil\u0103. M\u0103 bucur, restrospectiv, c\u0103 am acceptat s\u0103 ne vedem, \u00een felul \u0103sta ziua de 8 martie s-a \u00eendulcit un pic, dup\u0103 ce ani de zile, de\u0219i primeam flori sau felicit\u0103ri, eram de fapt destul de trist\u0103.<\/p>\n

N-am o concluzie sau \u00eencheiere potrivit\u0103 pentru g\u00e2ndurile de azi. \u00cenc\u0103 rumeg \u00een cap tot felul de chestii, \u00eencerc s\u0103-mi pricep sentimentele, \u00eens\u0103 e clar c\u0103 nu e o zi ca toate celelalte.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Am sentimente foarte amestecate cu privire la ziua de 8 martie. Probabil c\u0103 cei care m\u0103 cunosc destul de bine \u0219tiu deja de ce. Azi se \u00eemplinesc 15 ani de c\u00e2nd tat\u0103l meu nu mai e. Dar tot azi se … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[508],"class_list":["post-2373","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-hmmm","tag-tata"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2373","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2373"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2373\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2540,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2373\/revisions\/2540"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2373"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2373"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2373"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}