{"id":36,"date":"2005-02-22T01:18:00","date_gmt":"2005-02-21T23:18:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/my-life-or-something-like-it.html"},"modified":"2010-08-16T12:47:18","modified_gmt":"2010-08-16T09:47:18","slug":"my-life-or-something-like-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=36","title":{"rendered":"my life or something like it"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-family: verdana;\">Now I do have all the freedom in the world to finally do whatever I want&#8230;.and I don&#8217;t. I guess I&#8217;m stuck in the past, in my past habits and mental setups, I&#8217;m dealing with different people here and I can&#8217;t adjust, I just judge them according to these setups. When i shouldn&#8217;t judge anyone at all, when I should accept them for what they are&#8230; It&#8217;s so difficult that I can&#8217;t do it all alone. Coz I don&#8217;t rationalize them all and in the end I&#8217;m the one crying, all because of me:((. I need patient understanding people around&#8230;but this kind of patience doesn&#8217;t come out of the blue. Who&#8217;s gonna be that patient as to understand me every time I go crazy, every time I&#8217;m sad or happy for no reason, every time I am too sensitive about meaningless things that may mean a great deal to me? Who could be able to find me answers when I ask questions, who&#8217;s gonna be able to love me for what i am not for what I might be?<br \/>I know, I know&#8230;..today i&#8217;m such a cry-baby, I hate myself for that really, but this is how I need to write it, to exorcise it out of me and to relax at last&#8230;<br \/>Yes, not in a perfect mood indeed, but I&#8217;m ok.<br \/>and yes, stable:).<br \/><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Now I do have all the freedom in the world to finally do whatever I want&#8230;.and I don&#8217;t. I guess I&#8217;m stuck in the past, in my past habits and mental setups, I&#8217;m dealing with different people here and I &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=36\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[73],"tags":[213,90,3],"class_list":["post-36","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-aberatii","tag-life","tag-love","tag-me"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=36"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1449,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36\/revisions\/1449"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=36"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=36"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=36"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}