{"id":42,"date":"2005-03-30T23:54:00","date_gmt":"2005-03-30T21:54:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/my-mistake.html"},"modified":"2010-08-16T13:26:50","modified_gmt":"2010-08-16T10:26:50","slug":"my-mistake","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=42","title":{"rendered":"my mistake"},"content":{"rendered":"

It suddenly struck me\u2026.my mistake, last summer\u2019s mistake led me now to this impossible situation. In fact it\u2019s not that impossible, I\u2019m not living on the street or anything, but I\u2019m on the edge of survival or at least this is how I\u2019m feelin\u2019 it right now, maybe I\u2019m overreacting, but I\u2019m having a state of panic and anxiety that I rarely, if ever, experienced in my life. I shouldn\u2019t have left my brother\u2019s house\u2026that\u2019s all. That\u2019s a house that felt like home, like my old house, like my parent\u2019s house in Deva, there were familiar things there and I worked for that place as if it were my own. I shouldn\u2019t have left, that\u2019s all. I rushed into a relationship with no chances of survival, I didn\u2019t listen to people saying that M. is no good for me and it will only get me hurt, I was too eager to get over the trauma and the pain inside and I tried to kill all this by doing something foolish\u2026. Well, now I know all that but there is nothing I can do, it\u2019s all in the past, I only have to go through this anxiety, right now, this moment. Maybe it\u2019s only today, maybe tomorrow morning when I wake up, it\u2019ll all be just a bad dream. But I see that I got down too soon, too easy. With no fight at all.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s important, I think, to see everything from different points of view. Trying to\u2026not today, I think today I\u2019m entitled to be depressed.<\/span><\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It suddenly struck me\u2026.my mistake, last summer\u2019s mistake led me now to this impossible situation. In fact it\u2019s not that impossible, I\u2019m not living on the street or anything, but I\u2019m on the edge of survival or at least this … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[90,403,382],"class_list":["post-42","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-lovelife","tag-love","tag-pain","tag-relationships"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=42"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1460,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42\/revisions\/1460"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=42"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=42"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=42"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}