{"id":2676,"date":"2023-07-28T20:00:31","date_gmt":"2023-07-28T17:00:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=2676"},"modified":"2023-07-28T20:00:53","modified_gmt":"2023-07-28T17:00:53","slug":"mika-12-04-2005-27-07-2023","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=2676","title":{"rendered":"Mika (12.04.2005 – 27.07.2023)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Am crezut sincer c\u0103 e nemuritoare, invincibil\u0103. Am crezut c\u0103 o vom duce a\u0219a, cu boala de rinichi \u0219i b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021bea, \u00eenc\u0103 mult \u0219i bine. \u00cens\u0103 cu o moarte to\u021bi suntem datori, nici Mika nu a f\u0103cut excep\u021bie. \u0218i a decis s\u0103 plece din lumea asta ieri, dup\u0103 ce, cu o noapte \u00eenainte, a \u00eenceput s\u0103 scoat\u0103 ni\u0219te sunete ca \u0219i cum nu mai putea respira. \u00cemi tremurau m\u00e2inile c\u00e2nd c\u0103utam cel mai apropiat vet non-stop. Am ajuns cu ea destul de repede \u0219i-au luat-o direct, era clar c\u0103 era o urgen\u021b\u0103 la cum f\u0103cea. La prima vedere, avea edem pulmonar \u0219i trebuia s\u0103 stea peste noapte. A doua zi, pe la 11:30, am sunat s\u0103 v\u0103d ce face (consemnul era c\u0103 primesc telefon dac\u0103 p\u0103te\u0219te ceva nasol) \u0219i am aflat c\u0103 edemul se diminuase, dar mai trebuia \u00eenc\u0103 s\u0103 stea acolo. Am convenit c\u0103 vin pe la 17:00 s\u0103 o v\u0103d. Mi-am luat cu mine o p\u0103turic\u0103 \u0219i m\u00e2ncare. Am crezut c\u0103-\u0219i revine.<\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd am ajuns acolo, am aflat c\u0103 era grav de tot, c\u0103 \u00eencercaser\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 sune de nenum\u0103rate ori, \u00eens\u0103 num\u0103rul din fi\u0219\u0103 a fost incorect. Avea paralizie de laringe \u0219i nu mai putea respira singur\u0103. Nici intubat\u0103 nu respira prea bine. Exista posibilitatea unei opera\u021bii foarte scumpe, dar cu \u0219anse extrem de mici de supravie\u021buire. Anestezia \u0219i insuficien\u021ba renal\u0103 nu se \u00eempac\u0103 deloc. Ar fi putut muri de la anestezie. G\u00e2ndul c\u0103 s-ar chinui, dac\u0103 ar supravie\u021bui, cu recuperarea post opera\u021bie la v\u00e2rsta ei \u0219i la s\u0103n\u0103tatea ei cam \u0219ubred\u0103, m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 iau decizia de care m-am ferit de un an jumate, de c\u00e2nd a primit diagnosticul de insuficien\u021b\u0103 renal\u0103. Am pl\u00e2ns \u00een hohote afar\u0103, la telefon, dar apoi am revenit \u0219i am anun\u021bat c\u0103 e mai bine eutanasia. A fost tare greu.<\/p>\n

Am mai stat l\u00e2ng\u0103 un animal la eutanasie, c\u0103\u021belul Mooky, al mamei, a murit cu mine al\u0103turi. Am f\u0103cut la fel \u0219i acum. Am m\u00e2ng\u00e2iat-o tot timpul, de\u0219i era deja sedat\u0103 \u0219i nu \u0219tia c\u0103 eram acolo. Am stat p\u00e2n\u0103 am sim\u021bit c\u0103 s-a scurs via\u021ba din ea. \u0218i am plecat, l\u0103s\u00e2nd-o acolo, hohotind de pl\u00e2ns pe alee. Cum s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc f\u0103r\u0103 Mika acas\u0103?<\/p>\n

Dar p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 trebuia s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2mple \u0219i asta. Sooner or later. Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 a plecat o parte din mine cu ea. C\u0103 via\u021ba mea e complet schimbat\u0103. C\u0103 parc\u0103 nu mai sunt eu. A fost cu mine 18 ani \u0219i o lun\u0103. E cea mai lung\u0103 rela\u021bie din via\u021ba mea \u0219i \u0219tiu sigur c\u0103 nu o s\u0103 mai existe nimeni altcineva ca ea. E casa goal\u0103 acum, Mia, mezina de 3 ani, e cuminte \u0219i foarte silen\u021bioas\u0103. 18 ani am m\u00e2ncat p\u0103zind m\u00e2ncarea s\u0103 nu vin\u0103 Mika la ea. 18 ani m-a trezit de diminea\u021b\u0103, devreme, c\u0103 vrea m\u00e2ncare. 18 ani se \u00eentindea pe mine seara, \u00eenainte de culcare, sau se punea la picioarele mele \u0219i torcea. E enorm 18 ani. Ce fac eu cu mine acum?<\/p>\n

Ieri am pl\u00e2ns enorm. Azi m-am trezit \u0219i am pl\u00e2ns iar. Sim\u021beam \u00een piept senza\u021bia aia de pierdere. Mi-am f\u0103cut treaba minimal azi. Umblu prin cas\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 sens. Dar asta e via\u021ba noastr\u0103, a tuturor, pe p\u0103m\u00e2ntul \u0103sta.<\/p>\n

I will love her forever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Am crezut sincer c\u0103 e nemuritoare, invincibil\u0103. Am crezut c\u0103 o vom duce a\u0219a, cu boala de rinichi \u0219i b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021bea, \u00eenc\u0103 mult \u0219i bine. \u00cens\u0103 cu o moarte to\u021bi suntem datori, nici Mika nu a f\u0103cut excep\u021bie. \u0218i a decis … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[5],"class_list":["post-2676","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-hmmm","tag-mika"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2676","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2676"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2676\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2677,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2676\/revisions\/2677"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2676"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2676"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2676"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}