{"id":53,"date":"2005-07-07T20:53:00","date_gmt":"2005-07-07T18:53:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/anurim.com\/one-year-dillema.html"},"modified":"2010-08-16T20:15:54","modified_gmt":"2010-08-16T17:15:54","slug":"one-year-dillema","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=53","title":{"rendered":"one-year dillema"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-family: verdana;\"><span style=\"color: rgb(51, 51, 255);\">It&#8217;s been one hell of a year. An year to remember I guess, because things have never been so fluctuating in my life before. But now I think I&#8217;m getting better, although the changes, and I mean basic changes in my life, haven&#8217;t stopped. I still need a better-paid job, a different house or a house of my own..things like that. But all I want in this world is not to lose myself&#8230;not to become something I now hate, not to do things I consider despicable right now&#8230;.I don&#8217;t want to forget about me in this speedy and material modern life. And I say this because money have become a hell of an issue lately. Maybe because of their scarce presence in my life, or maybe because I am surrounded by people who consider always a material interest in everything. Or so it seems&#8230;<br \/>I have no conclusion now&#8230;.my blog is my relief, my escape sometimes, my confident, my shrink, my diary, my box of hidden thoughts&#8230; I write for myself and my writing reflects my mood, my state of spirit and my feelings. Dunno how it looks from the outside, I only know the inside :)&#8230;ranging from a white-pinkish atmosphere, to a blue-black one sometimes.<br \/>Right now I&#8217;ve come to the conclusion that I&#8217;ll never marry. It&#8217;s no purpose in doing that, as a girl, it has no meaning to be queen for a night, and depressed afterward, when your new husband will be desiring every woman in the world but you, and will feel confined in a marriage he realizes he didn&#8217;t want, that came too soon with too much responsibility. And I&#8217;m saying that because I actually know it happens&#8230; Not a very nice or pink perspective. And of course, there are cases that may contradict my opinion. If so, I&#8217;m glad. However, I am currently feeling that marriage has no point whatsoever.<br \/>Other than that, my cat is very funny, but she managed to almost break one of her front arms last night, I ran quickly to the doctor with her, she is now ok:). But she cried like a baby last night, I felt so sorry for her.<br \/>And that would be all, folks!!!<br \/><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s been one hell of a year. An year to remember I guess, because things have never been so fluctuating in my life before. But now I think I&#8217;m getting better, although the changes, and I mean basic changes in &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/anurim.com\/?p=53\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[3,408],"class_list":["post-53","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-hmmm","tag-me","tag-wishes"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=53"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1480,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53\/revisions\/1480"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=53"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=53"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/anurim.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=53"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}