what the heeeeellllll?

well, cannot believe this, but it’s true: C. is leaving to Barcelona after all, leaving me here, in the perfect chaos. His life is always a chaos, and this is why he is used to it, but me… that’s a different story. And M. is coming back, oh God, i shouldn’t feel this, this summer we were in love and now I can’t stand the thought of him in the house… It’s strange, but I can’t actually tell him to move back in, even though I wanna help him, because I just can’t. I thought of waiting for C. to leave and then…. I’ll see.

This makes no sense. Yeah, I know. so what?

And the one I love… he is in too much pain and unhappiness to be able to talk about him right now. someday maybe..

And that’s it for today.